Bunnies

I don't know for sure when that dream was, but I do know that around the 10th I was working very hard to let go of a lot of negative feelings and frustration. The Sunday before, or maybe it was on May Day, I had seen a bunny in the lawn at the church. If I haven't mentioned this before, rabbits are a very special totem or animal guide for me. It is the universe telling me wonderful things are just around the corner, or a reassurance that everything is okay. I see a bunny, and I instantly release my fears (at least for the moment!) But I was still wrestling with all of these anxieties and frustrations, and I asked the universe for another manifestation. Here is what a friend sent to me on the 11th:

Last night I was writing in my personal journal when I stopped to bring out my Abraham well-being card for tomorrow (now today.) I had to chuckle with it and thought of you. If I had a scanner I'd scan it for you. On the front there's the cutest bunny in a field of grass and flowers. Bunny is standing up with a 6 petaled flower held at chest. It says on the front:

What's my big hurry?
( It's all for joy.)
All is well.

On the back with a smaller pic of the bunny in a circle, it says:

What's the big hurry? You're not
ever going to get it done, so what
are you racing toward?

Every single activity that you're
involved in is for one purpose only,
and that is to give you a moment
of joy. That's why it all exists.

Lighten up. Laugh more.
Appreciate more. All is well.

I just had to share that with you. A reminder that the getting there is part of the adventure so make it fun.

Make it fun! A good reminder. It is almost two weeks later now, and much of my angst has dissolved. I've qualified for Hennepin County's Assured Access program which gets me discounts on doctor and dentist visits. My GI doctor is starting the paperwork which will get me my prescription FREE. And looking at rental places in the paper, I do believe I will be able to find something I can afford. There is no need to hurry. I don't have to be out until September or October.

I have been looking at my job with a new eye to what kind of projects I can create for myself. A monthly book club? Teaching computer classes? Using online genealogy resources? Yes, I'm not as far along careerwise as I'd like to be. And if I'm going to get a full-time job somewhere, then I will need to show some initiative. This is a little bit scary for someone who has been a sub for years without the freedom to create anything. But again, there is no need to hurry. I can only do the job one day at a time. I don't have to suddenly become Super Librarian.

After weeks of rain and clouds, we are finally enjoying perfect May weather. The sun is out. The mosquitoes are not (yet.) The lilacs have been especially long lasting this year because of the cool, rainy weather. Everything in due season.